From death to life:

Many of us have heartache and painful events that have impacted our lives very deeply. I want to share my story in hopes it helps you or someone you know find peace, comfort and healing.

I was married not even three months when we found out the news that we were expecting. It was in fact the greatest day of my life knowing that Gods plan for me was to be a mother. My husband and I were overjoyed and trying to decide the right time to share our news with friends and family.

About a week after we found out we were pregnant I began to have severe cramping and went to bathroom and started bleeding excessively. I knew at that moment all our dreams and hopes were crushed. We had suffered a miscarriage. What was the happiest season of my life turned very quickly into a season of deep pain and anguish. At that point I had been bombarded by guilt and shame. I was so emotionally fragile and my first thoughts were that this was my fault somehow.

Thankfully for me I knew deep down that it wasn’t my fault and I was able to lean on Jesus and trust Him through the pain and devastation of losing my unborn child. We didn’t even tell our family and close friends until a week later because I was still in shock and processing what happened. But God was so near and picking up the pieces of our broken hearts.

After our devastating loss I remember picking up a book we had laying around for while and it touched me so deeply called Heaven is for real. The boy in this book took a trip to heaven and lived to tell about it. I remember reading about how he met a little girl in heaven and he knew it was his unborn sister. It brought me so much peace knowing that our unborn child is with Jesus and that we we see him/her one day in eternity. We decided to name him/her Jamie after my uncle who passed away from cancer.

A month and a half after this devastating loss we were able to get pregnant for a second time! Our son is now 18 months old and thriving. He truly is our miracle baby and we thank God for every precious moment we have with him. We named our son Elijah which means the Lord is God. Because it is with Gods grace that we were able to have Him.

“To grant [consolation and joy] to those who mourn in Zion–to give them an ornament (a garland or diadem) of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, the garment [expressive] of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit–that they may be called oaks of righteousness [lofty, strong, and magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice, and right standing with God], the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭61:3‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I feel in my heart and spirit that God miraculously healed me of the pain and grief I felt on that terrible day. I know he bestowed on me a crown of beauty and has given me such joy through having my son. I pray if you have experienced loss like this that God would heal and restore you also.

Thoughts from my heart,
Shelly G